For long time ago,
I was standing on a hill every night looking at the land that other side of the river.
Then I thought that maybe someday I'll explore on the land and find some different things that I've never have found before.

Under a billion of the stars, laying down on a grass of the hill.
And wondering about beauty of the nature.
Then it reminds me about when I was 7 years old.
Me and my sister and brothers were swimming at the river.
We've even tried to catch fishes by a hands
We've collected beautiful rocks.
We made a small ships by a leafs and had a race each other.
------------I always lost.

But it was fun.......

Every morning thinking about a same things..
" What am I going to do today"
--------Try to find interesting things everyday.
When I've found something....

I'll write down on my Journal... like this...

Then I feel the....
-------------Life goes on----------------

eb, 13. 2000

Itï¿½s because I canï¿½t get online to see my friends, I just had to get my FAVORITE books for the Internet life. Yeah, Iï¿½ve been searching, and READING all over the Internet life. ï¿½EThe electric shock has been sent from current location before that the misunderstood happened "......
"Why the women up to something !? " " Why the parson who was a loser are starts to playing games on the net again !?

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Feb, 14 .2000.

I begged my husband that I want to use an Internet again till we move out here. My husband gave me an evil eyes. Then he made a few rules. We have to make a registration at Internet provider and setup for the online again, It's only for two month. First thing what I want to do is a make this journal alive in a somewhere new place. Then I'll check how everyone doing. I wondering how their react when they found out that who's got back online. ...It's kind a scary to see them.... Why am I thinking so much !? I've found a lot of gray hair on left side on my head.... well .. actually.... It's been there since when I was 20. I have to dye my hair red... or .... pink.

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Feb, 15. 2000.

Finally, I got back online again. I was going to build my new home page first but I just couldnï¿½t wait to see my friends. Iï¿½ve got a lot of jank e-mail. Some of are from my friends , it made me smile. I wasnï¿½t sure how my suppose to get on their track again. The past whole month is a seems give me a lot of confusion..
Although, is anyone notice that Iï¿½ve seen your magazine ???

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Feb 17, 2000.

I started to build new home page few days ago. But itï¿½s really heard to create a web pages at different place. I just have to get used to it. After I created few of my pages, I went to see a my friends at club board. Then I found out something that it really got my brain damaged. I thought what the scary thing is , it tells me that ï¿½If you are not there in right time, in right place, youï¿½ll gonna get big misunderstood from the public. ï¿½E I was talking about a gentleman who were working in a coffee shop. His initial was J/K.
I ordered cupchino coffee. I thought it was little an expensive cause
The coffee was only filled half of a cup. Now I know what that meant wasï¿½Eï¿½be careful when you order something in a publicï¿½E

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Feb 19, 2000.

I decided to post my journal on a world wide web, itï¿½s NOT
because of I wanted to show my anger to my friends.
< uh.. wait ..maybe...little ï¿½EO_O>
But when I saw my life in their Internet life, Iï¿½ve found part of my misunderstood. I also understand about their career that they needed to do it
Although, I wasnï¿½t forget about their support that theyï¿½ve done for me in the passed six month. If I was ,..Iï¿½d never visited their community. The reason why I did this because I wanted to talk back but I couldnï¿½t use Internet at that time.
And I missed themï¿½EI donï¿½t know why though ..
I STILL DONï¿½T KNOW MY FRIENDSï¿½EREAL NAME !!
Is that hard things to say !?
Am I so pathetic or what !?!?!

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